This song is like Purgatory in that it's about being poor and struggling through being poor, but instead of getting the dissociating effects of extreme anxiety, this one just is about the anxiety itself. The worst part of it all is that I had this constant feeling that if I stopped struggling that I would lose my creativity, that somehow my creativity came from this struggle and if I lived a comfortable life I'd lose my voice.
That's complete fucking bullshit.
lyrics
I'm afraid of losing my struggle
I'm afraid of losing my drive
One day I will be old and happy
And I won't feel a thing
Living on borrowed time
Living in borrowed space
One day I'll lose this life I live
Lose my voice and never speak
The hardest part
Hardest part
Hardest part
Is that it never
Hardest part
Hardest part
Hardest part
Is that it never ever ever
Ends
My life is ruled by upkeep
My life is ruled by fear
One day I will be free and safe
And I'll lose my identity
I think I like to burn out
I think I like to be sad
One day I'll find my way to love
Lose my humanity
An ambitious pop song cycle about human loneliness and fear, thick with harmonies and buoyed by tight musicianship. Bandcamp New & Notable Jun 27, 2018